My wish for my children

I wish that the sun will shine brightly every day for you.  I wish that you will wake up with a smile.  I wish that you will always be warm and never hungry.  I wish that you will know how truly blessed you are and know how blessed I am because of you.  I wish that you will have many opportunities in life and take advantage of almost all of them.  I wish for you many things but most of all I just wish that you knew ... really knew ... how much I love you.

I wake up every night and tuck you in.  I do it in the middle of the night because you're a teenager and well, if you were awake you probably wouldn't let me.  I call you 100x a day just to see what you're doing because I'm not there and I want to be.  I know that I'm overbearing and I'm sure there are a lot of parents out there that you would rather me be, but I won't be.  I will always be me.  I will always be who I think is best.  I will never give you anything less than the best, it just might not be what you think it should be.  I'm not saying my decisions are all the right ones but I learn from them and I will try harder.

I also know that some of my decisions might push you further away from me because I'm just "too much".  And thats okay too.  Because I love you and I know one day you will see that thats the only reason why I have ever did anything that I have done.  Its always been out of love.

I don't want to see you hurt or fail ... but I have to let you fall sometimes.  But I promise you I will be there to pick you up and help you put the pieces back together.  I will help you figure whatever it is you need figured out ... but I can't do it unless you want it.

I want to be the mom that you come to for everything, but I also understand that my own issues prevent me from that.  I try to understand you and I just ask that you respect my boundaries.

I am a mean mom but I am also a loving mom.

I wish for you a million stars in the sky for you every single night.  I wish for you nothing but bright days and calm nights.  I wish for you the love of everyone around you.  I wish for you success in everything you do.  I wish for you laughter.  I wish for you so many things and I wish that I could give them all to you.

I love all three of you very much.  I am blessed, truly blessed.


Lord, thank you for my sweet children and looking over them and keeping them healthy in their hearts.  Thank you for my long days spent with each of them.  Guide them in decisions that they make in hopes they will be the right ones.  And today, Lord ... please watch over Alyssa.  bring her home safely.  keep her warm and fed. and make sure she knows that we all love her. Amen.