I am slowly but surely reaching what I have sought for so long ...
I am working on my relationship with Jesus Christ and I feel so good and so loved and so great every single day. I want to be a great person but I know that I will never be as great as I want to be but I am working on different things. I have been working on my swaring, which I am doing pretty goon on. I do have the occasional slip and Bubby reminds me lol ... and then there's times that I have to remind myself that just because its not a "cuss" word, its still probably not a nice word.
I have been not only reading but understanding the Bible. I am the kind of person that needs to have an answer to my questions and if I don't know the answer its hard for me to move forward, and I am understanding more and more through His word. Its really an incredible feeling.
What I have added to my journey is that happiness comes from within and that if I'm not happy its not only by my choice but by choices that I make. So those choices could be associating with people that make me feel bad about myself or those who complain or just maybe put me in a bummer mood ... I know that long conversations or spending long periods of time with certain people will put me in a direction that I don't want to go and so I have limited myself. I have been labeled because of this, but thats okay because I made the choice to be happy.
Another choice in happiness is my job. My boss and I do not see eye to eye very often and so I have prayed for patience because I really dreaded coming in to work because I just knew that I would be put down and that him and I would argue and that would be the end of my day. I decided that I would take his criticism, although mostly harsh, and I would put it to good use and make better decisions about my performance and become better at my job. I would also not bicker back to him ... this was a hard one for me because I do not like to be looked at as weak but all it did was fuel fire that was unnecessary and in the end it was me that it made miserable. I have done this for about a week and my days at work have been great! Even when he barks at me I just smile at him and answer whatever question it is that he has. I have been doing so much better and feeling so much better and I know that this is because I have Jesus Christ in my heart and I pray and He answers my prayers with my help.
I am just overjoyed with how my life has been turning around. I love Jesus and I can't wait to continue this journey and learn more every day.
